I was in a house...with my fiance... and we were laughing and joking....
theres a bunch of people there talking...and some girls.
One of the girls makes a comment and he giggles about it...and says something that just didnt add up. So I question him about it, and some guy in the background makes his own comment, which further fuels my anger...so I'm yelling and screaming at my fiance... all the while he's not denying any of the things the people in the background are saying... nor trying to comfort me....I get even angrier and start to threaten the group of people....somehow some way my dad comes in and pulls me back, but I break loose of my dad's hold...and walk back over to Chad ... and I say " You know what Chad, I'm done..It's over. " and I walk out....
The dream takes me somewhere else.... and I keep seeing him with his friend...
and despite the fact that I broke up with him...I still love him so I look at him, and see him looking at me. He looks at me and nods...in a "whats up" type way.
& I turn my head.....
Later I see him again...and this time hes in a car.... on the passengers side..while I'm driving past...and he points at me.
The later on again I see him while I'm walking with a new boyfriend.... who was my best friend somehow in the dream.Chad says Hi to me & I say hi to him. Chad & Him start to argue....
Then my best friend/boyfriend in the dream says " Thats why I fucked yo girl!" ....and I look ...and I can see the pain &anger in Chad's eyes...he grabs me and starts to shake me asking why I had cheated on him...I start to water up in my eyes and respond that it wasnt cheating because we were broken up...and He had cheated on me with Unique (this happened in real life) ...and then he gets angrier and lets go off me, and walks off....
THEN he comes back and grabs my arm and says " You know what.... i dont give a fuck what I did, I dont give a fuck, what you did, I love you...." and then we walk off together."
" You know what.... i dont give a fuck what I did, I dont give a fuck, what you did, I love you...." and then we walk off together."
If only love could truly be unconditional & that forgiving....
I don't know why I had this dream, I don't know what the meaning behind it is....I do know tha, and I'll admit that...I still love him. I just can't see myself trusting him ever again like I used to.....
It's a complicated unresolved situation that I thought I resolved when I was down there on my birthday.
Maybe the dream's telling me...no matter what we'll always love each other, we just don't have to be together forever.
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